Our brains are built to protect us and under duress our survival instincts kick in. We take can actions that ease pain and reduce stress. We are built to survive. Sometimes, in order to cope we choose things that temporarily bring relief, sometimes those things are substance or alcohol. But sometimes they can take other forms. Food and over eating, exercise, por*ography, sex. In 2017 I lost everything, financially. I had helped build a start- up with some of my best friends at the time (you can see where I’m going with this). The business became a national success in the states and still is. So much so the likes of Mark Cuban invested in it.These were my friends, they would never screw me….wrong. People get funny with money. I left with nothing. I take full responsibility for not having a contract. Lesson learned.I was stricken with shame. I had to sell my car. Move back home to my parents. I was devastated and didn’t know how to deal with it.In the summer of 2018 I ended up back in NYC and I began going out on the weekends. I was unconsciously drinking a lot, it’s socially acceptable to have a drink or two every night of the week in NYC. It got to the point where I made some really poor drunk decisions which ended a relationship. So I decided to stop drinking and went to therapy.But then I found, MD*A and felt a relief from all of the shame I was carrying. It has very therapeutic properties but I was unconsciously abusing this substance in order to cope with the shame from now 2 events.There’s no shortage of parties in NYC. Needless to say I was going out every weekend of 2019 and indulging. It was too much.Thankfully I had the awareness and could see where things were going. I needed to remove myself and give my brain a break so I left NYC to work remotely and reduce temptation. I wouldn’t become aware of my relationship between substance and trauma until years later. All is well now.I’m all for having a good time, but I invite you to see if there’s a connection between any unhealthy ways of coping and trauma in your life. Love you#techno #electronicmusic #mentalhealth #addicition #trauma #awareness #copingmechanisms #housemusic #rave
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